Aristotle and Aquinas considered that there are seven human passions: love and hatred, desire and fear, joy and sadness, and anger. Each individual is responsible for his or her own development and fortune. To accept fatalism, that is, to believe that destiny is somehow immovable, is to discourage yourself from attempting all initiatives to improve your life and self. Instead, remember that fixing calamities and changing destiny for the better are ways to strengthen your character and improve your lot in life. Work out your happiness; don’t wait for someone else or something else to do it for you because it will never happen unless you persevere.
On Sunday, some people were not happy about the Big Brother Amplified final outcome. A fellow Zimbabwean, Wendall had won against the crowd favorite Luclay. The funny thing is, I was not interested and am still not interested in Big Brother, yet some misguided elements thought let us go to our usual easy victim to bully! Me? (I always laugh out loud whenever this happens)
I am proud to say, during the years I have learnt to master my feelings. One of my biggest weaknesses is ANGER, I will never deny that. Most of the times I laugh when I am angry, for that help me to walk away and focus on positives. However we all know that sometimes the shit will hit the fan, and things can go any direction. I am friendly, I love life and I am on a chosen journey to walk away from whatever makes me angry, but should that element follow me, it will always reach a time when I need to address it once and for all.
For those who might have witnessed what I tweeted through @NATIVEFAM, I can unapologetically tell you that it can be worse than that. I was attacking people who have been on my case for almost 5 months. My TOLERANCE and SILENCE was mistaken for some weak Tendai, who can be kicked around back and forth till the next Moon Eclipse! What a mistaken perception.
Okay I have done things I regret, not that I feel sorry for myself or I am proud of it, but I am thankful that I was able to walk away and change my life. I was a student who took a weapon to school for more than a month, with a clear intention to harm a female teacher. I was the same kid who rushed into a bank hall and shouted insults at a woman who had called me “Streetkid”. I was the same young man who threatened a family with death after a misunderstanding. In 2008 I reflected on all that and decided to take a new path. I knew it was not going to be easy, some would try to shake me, some would still get the other side of Tendai, and my mission was to “WALK AWAY FROM ANGER”
Through my journey I have worked and counseled convicted and paroled murderers, armed robbers, gangsters, suicidal people and even rape victims. It has all been emotional but it’s leading me to my desired destiny, to be always positive and not let anger control me and my destiny. I have done stupid things before, including fighting a thug who had put a gun on my head. I love PEACE and I love LAUGHING. I will never be perfect, I will hurt people along the way but my journey is to change my world and the world of people around me to the best I can.
I do not see myself repeating what I said on Sunday, it is regrettable. I also take this time to say, I will always stand with my true friends, being surrounded by fake people is not one of my wishes.
AFTER FIVE MONTH of HELL , I just had to let someone know, “ I AM NOT THAT EASY CYBER BULLYING VICTIM”.